...And You Wear Too Much Make-Up (lyrics by Tom)
As empty words poured from her lips - as the vanity suffocates
may I never breathe your name
may I never suffer your presence
may you never need to feel the same
and I'd like to, I'd like to
wish it away
burn it to ash
Erasing shadows that you've cast
At the Wake (lyrics by Artie)
How does it feel? How does it feel?
all of your dreams - well did they ever come true?
and did you get what you want?
how does it feel to be alive?
stare into the eyes of all your dead friends
you're the one that did this to them
stare into the eyes of all your dead friends
all these ghosts no longer children
stare into the eyes of all your dead friends
you were met with resistance
you fought hard, you persisted
now look back on your transgressions
head in hands
this is your punishment - and this is your penance
this is your reward - trophies and tombstones
How does it feel to be alive?
Believe (lyrics by Justin)
I BELIEVE...
in eternal life, in myself, live forever, in immortality
I believe in a world free of excessive desire
a world filled with compassion and sensitivity
not senseless murder, hate and material obsession
one life that condescends upon the importance of possession
I believe in myself, I believe we are more than just simply bodies
I believe in a million tomorrows and a life after death
I've never asked for anything from life
I'd rather give than take from it
I've never turned my back, I never will
This life is what we make of it
I believe that dreams destroy - that we are more than just bodies
in myself - in a million tomorrows - in human nature - in equality
I believe
Blindfold (lyrics by Justin)
Millions are enslaved at the hands of intangible gods
They submit their souls to the merciful unknown
Faith is not a savior - don't give in your grace
You're drowning in your holy water you know theres no escape
You've been seized - by the greed known as faith
Your false prophecy - sacrificed lies clenched so tight -
Do not believe the myths. I will not fall victim to their lies.
Burning Saints (lyrics by Artie)
Where is the center of the world?
arrogance is ignorance, arrogance is blinding
Empires are temporary - every government is temporary
no standard prevails - nothing lasts forever
your assimilation is at hand
shield your eyes from the sun and kneel and pray
waiting for the destruction of the new roman empire
waiting for the end of televised war and plastic culture
reaching across the world and spreading like a fucking cancer
Amputate it, sterilize it and start all over
Cowards (lyrics by Justin)
Selfishness fuels the need to satisfy their greed
Rape and take this flesh- take them for what they're worth
Eye for an eye in punishment for their sins- and now I act in defense of the defenseless
Cowards! - human liberation- for the dying civilization-
Selfishness fuels the need to satisfy their greed-
animal liberation- for the dying civilization
cowards lead this genocide
innocent life objectified
"Unseen they suffer
unheard they cry
in loneliness they linger
in agony they die."
...Crawling (lyrics by Artie Philie and Tommy Corrigan)
You're running away from your enemies
you submit to every attack
everybody gets their chance to wrap their hands around your neck
this is how life imitates death
nothing changes - nothing moves
spend your final hours hearing roaches crawl across your casket lid
hear the soil falling over your head
it buries you - weakness
crawling on floors and trying to hide yourself in dirt and in cracks
disaster follows you so cross your filthy fingers behind your back
circumstance makes you the victim
that's what you want to believe
But you become the vermin that you hate when you let weakness keep you safe
Let's just say that I went back inside to pull you out
Then you said that you'd much rather crawl
Let's just say that I left you there to rot away
you're so determined - chest dragging...
CRAWL - you're crawling
while I live, I may fail - but I will never be weak
Crucifix Escapist (lyrics by Justin / Diamanda Galas)
Dead souls rising to the jailers of the dying
Hear our crying as we cast thy sinners down
An angel fell from hell with its wings aflame
Having served my time in your paradise of torture and despair
To play the harps of sin
Crucifix escapist
Dead (lyrics by Artie)
Every day is another nail in your coffin
sealed inside and forgetting all light
take as much as you can -shove it down
and coke on the best years of your life
this is life - so welcome to it
this is life - it's the way it is
this is life - so get used to it
this is life - it doesn't get any better than this
sacrifice every part of yourself and each day you will never get back
and no matter how much you give
they will still take it - take it all away
take it - take it all away
you will never survive this life
you gave too much of yourself away
you can't survive this life - you're dead
you've sealed yourself away
sealed away from the rest of the world
Destiny (lyrics by Justin)
indivisible - we are sworn
a pledge, a vow, a promise - we are sworn|
indivisible- we are sworn
a pledge, a vow, a promise
in times of need of consolation you're there
like my conscience giving me strength like no one else
I can feel you teaching me about myself
I can feel you
letting me know you are there
you're my security- I bleed for no one else
my destiny lies in your eyes - I can feel it, I can see it
your security keeps me alive- I can feel it, I can see it
Disregard (lyrics by Justin)
in complete disregard for innocent human life
in complete disregard for the welfare of mankind
destroy your surroundings and let others deal with your mistakes
"I'll die for my freedom" I don't think freedom is what's at stake
we'll burn the bias - break the chains shun the blame
and take the blame for the final time to shun the persecution of a lifetime
Dream Come True (Lyrics by Justin)
You build up all that hope, all that faith
to watch it all disappear
Dreams fulfilled are as good as dead
worse than a dream that never came true
dreams die when they come true
dreams die when there?s no hope
nothing to live for
nothing to hope for
nothing to dream of
nothing to wish for
nothing to believe in
nothing to dream of
nothing to hope for
nothing to die for
dreams die when they come true
dreams die when there's no hope
End of a Short Rope (lyrics by Artie and Justin)
Waking up suicidal
penniless, broken and a wasted
getting used to the desperation - the sweat, the panic
can't find a reason to maintain this charade
why the fuck should I keep going when every day gets more meaningless?
what do you want me to say? everything is not ok
I used to think that I was good enough
but now the easiest decisions are just too much
you have your status and all of your money so don't presume to understand
so don't patronize me privileged fucker
you could never know what it's like to feel so starved
at the end of a short rope
at the end of every night - ask yourself
what is left of your life?
it's a disease
False Prophet Preaching (lyrics by Justin)
preach common sense and call it religion
tell me not to kill and now I must worship you?
you're invisible - I can't see you
you're inaudible - I can't hear you
feed the hungry - clothe the naked
starve the hungry - choke the thirsty
let them all bleed dry in my grasp
no angels stalk - stalk, stalk, stalk
I am reborn - I know apocalypse
(and no one fucking tells me)
what is wrong and what is right
Fracture (lyrics by Tom)
for 1200 days and nights I remained sleepless
only seemed to lie recounting in a dream that disappeared long ago
as hours grew to days grew to months grew to years
regretfully it appears that this dream was nothing but a foregone conclusion
left to spend my waking days refuting the illusion
put my mind to rest and strengthen my will
display to me your fidelity and put my mind to rest
transparent walls that enclose (fracture)
separating us from the words of those
words untold never cease to repeat nothing superior could I aspire to create
Guilty (lyrics by Justin and Tom)
no one is born a bigot
there is no mind more open than a child's
but teach a child prejudice, hatred
and that mind begins to close until a racist is born
evil is not innate, no child knows color
teaching their children to lie, prejudge and be close-minded
sometimes what we don't teach our children is more important than what we do
it's relentless
this ignorance that infects us all
it has come to be what we expect
perpetuated by years of ignorance
passed on through the generations
but we won't be deceived
why are we born with blood on our hands and sin on our minds?
why are we born with guilt and a blade hanging over our heads?
evil seems instinctual, what's right must be pursued
why are the tools no longer given to us?
why have we rights to abuse?
we refuse to be guilty
Hallowed Be Thy Name (lyrics by Justin)
I question the sin
systemized beliefs organized
identity in honor in fear
at the mercy so we worship
the lies are not the host
Stockholm syndrome - passed down, let down
promise me salvation, promise me deliverance
Who should I fall for?
Who should I fall to?
Who should I die for?
Who will collapse me?
FOR THOSE I LOVE I WILL SACRIFICE NOT FOR THOSE I'VE NEVER SEEN
Hallowed be thy name
Hello Cruel World (lyrics by Justin and Artie)
Your popularity contest veiled as a revolution
wallow in misery, suffer your celebrity
hold your status above me
hold it high above me
wallow in your misery, suffer your celebrity
you hold a special place in my heart with handshakes and smiling faces...
...and all your actions, they have a reason
premeditated compliments
your life - contorted, contrived - and you play the part so well
in their lives I've seen compromise but I will not compromise
your game, your rules, you win
I am their slave
I'm just a pawn in their game
Labels make the best the best targets
persecution is its own reward so still you carry your cross for all to see
why live without an audience?
in their lives I've seen compromise but I will not compromise
complacent slave!
The Higher Side of Low (lyrics by Artie)
swallowing an ocean of absence
soaking in the tortured admissions and passionate denials
the absent friends and enemies, the manufactured threats
the crushing weight of memories are all that I have left
the absence of feeling - no love, no pity, no hate
and the absence of anything as what's left of me
drowns in waves of mindless apathy, submerged in total despair
dilute the venom of misery
see the world through the bottom of a glass
as all sensation separates from a numbing heart
another dosage of the antidote suffocates emotion before it starts the same depression
the same fear...constant frustration at the same reflected stares
...but cold flesh protects my mind like a clear, smooth, hard bottle-glass skull
from crushing volumes of nothing
How Far the Mighty Have Fallen (lyrics by Justin and Tom)
never trust in a mortal
a pale symbol of your integrity
aiding your quest to magnify your name
take my place - I had plans to leave
somewhere far from this triviality (insanity)
pedestals that are self made tend to crumble as the spotlight fades
something's got to give and quick
your ego conquered your soul
something's got to give and quick
extremists are always the first to go
the world doesn't need another hero
Last Beat Of My Heart (lyrics by Siouxsie and The Banshees)
in a wave of forgiveness
on angels wings
we dare to breathe
reach out your hands
don't turn your back, don't walk away
How in the world could i wish for this?
never to be torn apart
close to you until the last beat of my heart
at the close of day
these words in shadow play
here and now - here and now
my heart cries out
the naked bone of an echo says "don't walk away"
reach out your hands
reach our your hands - i'm just a step away
Lies (lyrics by Justin)
you're always pointing fingers
you're too blind to be
to proud to blame yourself and too afraid to see
you're always pointing fingers
they should be pointed inward
you're the one at fault
you're too blind to see the truth
no more of your - no more lies
waste my - time with
your lies - your lies
excuses are what failures are made of
but I'm no failure
I point the finger inward
I'm not looking for a scapegoat
I am...I am...I am.. the truth!
Making People Apologize For Accusing You of Things You Actually Did (lyrics by Justin)
extinction of existence pending close behind
burning through the wake - the desire to seize the day
extinction of existence pending close behind
burning through the wake I escape
Into the light through fire and nails at our backs
and thorns at my side and friends on fire
will you quench my thirst with this holy dirt?
living at the hour of our deaths
yet I strive still with god against my will
and thorns against my face set aflame the human race
Ashes in my eyes
Set fire to your lies
May Be Monitored to Assure Quality Control (lyrics by Justin and Artie)
Our teeth break on nails yet we chew on them still
as moths to a flame
no one is saved
no one still lives
driven by guilt and greed and numb to all extremes
and you want everything in arms reach
gorge yourself on images and promises
but what do you have? what do you feel?
what do you want besides more?
what is your definition of what is real?
who uses you and what for?
sculpted, written in stone: the myth of "satisfaction"
reach out for the intangible
chase your fantasy in to the wasteland
shit breeding shit - this what is left of us
shit breeding shit - what has become of us?
"give me convenience or give me death"
this is what rapes us, makes us and breaks us every fucking day
Most Precious Blood (lyrics by Justin)
Count me out of your aspirations
as I tear down your ambitions
no devotion, no obligation
as contagions fill the air
you've exhausted every option
it's time to tear you down
I will not surrender my soul
tighten the noose around our necks
tighten the noose around my soul...
Never Again (lyrics by Justin)
swallowed again
I fell in too deep
I reach out my hand only to fall witness to my shadows blood
these eyes have never betrayed
next time I'll know better
this wrong will make me right this wrong will make you right
I burn these memories
your tears feed the fire
my veins flood with regret
I can see right through you
I was so blind - never again
a bleed like a leech
because I was so attached
obsessed, a parasite to your promises
you broke me in two because I wouldn?t bend
I held on too tight
lost my grasp in the end - (you were never there)
here I am where you promised that I'd never be
The vacancy of my soul- tearing itself
never say goodbye!
Never again
I was so blind
No (lyrics by Justin)
no racism
no respect
no regret
no religion (no rest)
NO.
No Place Like Home (lyrics by Tom)
bound by inability and left to suffer the absence
words have failed me once again
attempts at completion have again left me empty
fate's design has forced me
to live without
and when I close my eyes I envision
one so undeserving of your presence
one who does not appreciate you as I
one who needs not struggle with your absence
One Last Time (lyrics by Justin)
cast me into darkness and rob me of all prosperity
turn myself against myself
try and recreate me
are you obsessed with possession or possessed by obsession?
drained absolute - still I bleed
screaming silent - still I bleed
take me for what I'm worth and let me disintegrate
in your arms, one last time
let me die where I always wanted to die
so I break this glass with such intent with hopes to erase all I never wanted to forget
bleed me inside out with your eyes as I walk through your lies one last time (bleed me)
you're gonna need more to destroy.
Promise (lyrics by Justin and Tom)
I refuse to relive my past
live with no discretion in my head
all the hours I was living
inside I was dead
I refuse to reflect upon a past that I now regret
because living with the past is harder than it is to forget
its your choice
discard your final chance
destined to die by your own hand
I'll bleed for my faults and I'll die for my cause
true in every breath to myself til my death
for all of the time that you wasted away
a year of life for every wasted day
a constant reminder of what I used to be
but you will never blind me with your negativity
Purgatory (lyrics by Justin)
we'll all suffer for what we've done
we pay no mind but we're all guilty
we were created and will be taken away just the same
and we'll beg and plead and wish and fade away
NO HEAVEN NO HELL NO HERE NO NOW
false sense fooled by society we've been deceived betrayed once again
I have taken part and for that I am at fault
I've lent a hand in destroying humanity
we'll be judged we'll be punished we'll take responsibility once and for all
NO HEAVEN NO HELL NO HERE NO NOW!
Reconsider (lyrics by Tom)
believed to be a revolution
but to most just a style
superiority at others exclusion
disdain for those defiled
just another form of segregation - emboldened
enforcing your ideals
step back - reconsider your position
step back and try to deal in something real
i'm not turning back to the vow i made to my soul
do it for yourself
not to assume some role
to shut out and segregate was not the original intent
it seems we've lost sight of what it once meant
what it once meant
its not a question of worth but its worth questioning...
Release the Cure (lyrics by Justin and Artie)
Our pain is profit, health is poverty
unveil the truth - we've swallowed lies
they've stripped us clean - tied us to their machines
one death is tragedy - billions the industry
Epidemics equal revenue
plugged in for life as you wear that caring disguise
how many more lies am I insured for?
we pay for research while we live in disease
so sick and tired as we wait...(for you to)
Release the cure
How many more lies are you prepared to sell?
I'll swallow another pill as I drown in my wishing well
searching for something more by the light of a fading torch
weeding us out, keeping us down - involuntary unnatural selection
bleed out the money before we are dead
force us to wait as the infection spreads
all this time the clock is ticking
this is not what you'd call living...
Resurrection (lyrics by Justin)
eternal life on earth - a resurrection
my resurrection
my blood still flows
I have a purpose
I have unfinished business
I was taken to early I have a dream - it was a mistake
I haven't kept my promise - I need more time
bring me back if just for one day
I have a purpose - I broke my promise
my dream was killed - somebody took me away
why? why? why? why?
is there life after death?
bring me back if just for one day
born again
betrayed again
Safe Haven (lyrics by Justin)
this time it's all over again - destroyed again and let down again
built up again to be torn down again
this time it's all over again
built up again to be torn down again
you became a memory awkward in your presence
that state of mind separation from devotion
I have no regrets except for everything
if I offered eternity you'd still expect more
run and run you'll never run far enough
I know where you go when you're afraid
Samaritan (lyrics by Justin, Tom & Rob Fish)
Just a man...imperfect...vulnerable
why can't my words be seen for what they are
an expression of my ongoing struggle
I am not your culture
I am not your shelter
I am not your addiction
I am not your solution
running with my head down
the blood fills my mouth - the sting fills my eyes
dying to avoid the sight of the endless struggle
to find an end to this passion play of which we?re all a part
the depths we'll fall to...for the love of...
don?t want to carry it anymore - the weight on my shoulders
your hands around my neck
not seen as an attempt to dig deeper with myself
and now it's my cross to bear
Save Me (lyrics by Artie)
where did you go and where were you running to?
how could you not know I would come after you?
this comes and goes in waves and in spirals
nothing is permanent - nothing is final
Save me
where did you go and where were you running to?
and so you asked but why should I answer you?
that's one thing I never told anyone
because I'm saving that for when the end comes
save me
save me from the great white noise
save me from the spirals and the tides
save me from the passage of time
and save me from what I've done to myself
Shadowboxing (lyrics by Justin)
your fighting yourself - against these same walls
your own opposition - and you're at it again
in the mirror your hands clenched - it's fists against flesh
in the shadows in the mirrors it's deja vu again it's you once again
the same walls your blood shatters - it's you against you
what do you have to prove? - there's nothing I can do
but watch yourself fight yourself - into a corner
got yourself against the ropes
fight against yourself and you will always win
shadowboxing
kill yourself fight yourself
tear down the blood walls with shadowed swings
and you've won once again
fight yourself kill your self and you've won again
exclusive adversary personal opposition
but you don't realize fight yourself you'll always win
Sharpener / Falling in Love is like Setting Yourself on Fire and Hoping You Won?t Get Burned (lyrics by Tom and Justin)
I'm not a part of your life anymore
your life is not a part of me anymore
you're not a part of yourself anymore
your puzzle has one too many pieces
my veins are open awaiting incision
my hands are open clutching at nothing
and it burns me through what's become of you
misunderstood I've done all I could
cut me open - deeper still
the more you say the more of me you kill
words that cut me to the bone
a constant reminder of all that you?ve done
and it burns me through
knowing that there is nothing I can do
Slave (lyrics by Justin)
a slave to impulse
set your desire on fire
can't take your eyes off the flame
and all you dream of is fame
bleed the eyes that victimize - a cannibal, an animal
your feigned compassion slips with every word that passes your lips
where then where will we be when there's nothing left to heed
you are not your compassion - so much thought with such little action
how does it feel to know that everything you can do
has been done before so many times before
how does it feel to know that everything you can say
has been said before so many times before
Suspension of Disbelief (lyrics by Artie)
Authority is based on nothing but intimidation
they live to instill fear to compensate for the courage that they lack
their power is an illusion kept alive by those it abuses
and by those who sit back and watch while others suffer the subjugation
so I won't break and I won't bend
no compromises - I'm not giving them another inch
I won't break and I won't bend
their power is a fucking lie
it's false power - their power is nothing but a lie
acknowledging the power structure is the first step towards allowing it to dominate you
by living inside the system's confines you allow yourself to be controlled and supervised
constantly under their surveillance isn't it time you recognized what it means to live above and outside their laws
by obeying your very own moral code?
hasn't too much time been wasted staying right where society placed you?
aren't our lives far too short to waste even one more minute standing in line? Yes!
when no one fears them
no one respects them
no one runs from them
watch them as they disappear
Their power is a lie
This Time Tomorrow (lyrics by Justin)
carve your name into my chest
burn myself down till there's nothing left
concrete rushes up to meet my fading heart
death is the climax of all emotion
tear me down - let me fall
what we once held so dear disintegrates in our hands
this time tomorrow - where will I be?
this time tomorrow - where will you be?
this time
Those Homophobic (this is a cover by a band called 411)
i keep stupidity by my side
i've got stupid masculine pride
i use hatred to express fear
there's a reason they're called queer
love as! Some church defines it!
Expressed! As we'd confine it
suffers! the undeserving
don't look for mercy in these eyes
why can't they just do whats right?
its not love that brought them here
there's a reason they're called queer
love is love!
Through the Wasteland Go Searching We (lyrics by Justin and Artie)
through the wasteland, forward to death
closer to it with every step
in stale air we draw a breath
in the midst of life we are in debt
and closer still with every step
through the wasteland forward to death
once we were so young and lived so carelessly
now through the wasteland go searching we
life feeds on life - as parasite to host
dust returns to dust
and in god we rust....slowly, in god we rust
wastelands of regret like you could never imagine
trying hard to forget defeated aspirations
but each day your hands shake in fear of what comes next
what comes next?
To Live and Die in New York City (lyrics by Justin)
they measure success by what I possess
where once was a heart there's a hole in my chest
are you satisfied?
under filthy streets - subhuman screams
in desperate times we live by desperate means
are you satisfied?
I said what I meant and I meant just what I said
New York is in flames and the sidewalk cracks are shallow graves for this stolen city
it's burning down - then sink manhattan and let them drown
their hollow souls crumble against the best laid plans of rats and men
I DARE YOU TO BE REAL
to make your mark is to die face up on flaming asphalt
your corpse will speak for itself
Tunnel Vision (lyrics by Artie)
self preservation - the end of ambition
life is so long when you spend it waiting for
all the things you'll never be getting
everything you don't deserve is everything you want
you think you deserve everything you want
now you're getting older
your whole life is over
the glass stares right back - you watch yourself disappear
in the bathroom mirror - like so many others
in tunnel vision we see ourselves with eyes wide open
lying awake at night hating ourselves
for not living the life that we should have led
life is so long when there?s nothing worth living for
life is so long when there?s no one else
Under Siege (lyrics by Justin)
desparate and famished
scourged and suicidal
live and die by the sword
fall victim to your idols
tortured by despair
smoldering in desparation
suffer and burn alive in the flames of desolation
under siege
these truths are seen through the eyes of a dying world
the die has been cast
the final solution drawn
end this fear we?ve lived in like societies pawns with negligent abandon
I've watched with content eyes
destroying their greed
shatter their ambitious lies
these truths are seen through the eyes of a dying world
Victims of A Callous Society (lyrics by Justin)
survivors of systematic persecution continue to suffer
like cowards society turns away
it doesn't involve us so we don?t care
driven from their homes by ethnic cleansing
to defend and set free we must prepare
the innocent are the ones who suffer
not the politicians who lead the debate
the innocent die
the politicians argue
they send out more armies to maintain the hate
abandon and ignore
the feud begins anew
rescue the victims of this holocaust
who blindly fight for pseudo-martial rights.
What Culture? (lyrics by Justin)
say your prayers and count your blessings
you all make me choke
all your pleasures all my poisons
talk yourself out of breath
outside of the spectacle you are nothing
a society of drones churning the rumor mill
you've proven nothing - you've changed nothing
you've done nothing - you ARE nothing
in small circles you are the center
enjoy your fame it doesn't last forever
close your eyes and spread your lies
what culture?
The World is Just Another Thing in My Way (lyrics by Tom)
in the name of all that?s sacred
all that's left will be you and I
faced with distress and disappointment
we distanced ourselves from the world
we both ran as far as we could but shelter was not anywhere
we ran in opposite directions but destiny brought us here
in the hours that remain speak no more of tortured days
this world has failed us both - together we turn away
in the name of all that's sacred - all that's left is you and I
Worlds Apart (lyrics by Tom and Justin)
no matter how hard I tried the words remained unspoken
ineloquence has caused my someday to be broken
uncertainty has forced me to the price
ruined is the first day of the rest of my life
overestimate your own relevance
crushing is the weight of your insignificance
selfishness is rooted in your heart
so proving to me that we're world?s apart
when I began to see with my eyes and not with my heart
is when I first discovered that we were worlds apart
Worlds apart
You Dissolve (lyrics by Justin)
watching you like this
tears me apart
you regress your feelings
the guilt is all mine
I can't forget a feeling like it meant nothing
torn in two as you
regress this frustration
this walls are closing in on me - my wrists feel so weak
this urge never overcame me so strong
like thorns in my eyes I hear your voice still silent in my ears
in dreams I smile - in consciousness I cry
what happened to the promises?
your lies and hatred
you shut me out
became what you despised magnified
I know it would hurt you but I wish I could just wake you up
you're not waking up this time
set yourself up for self-destruction again
you're not waking up
